Wednesday, January 14, 2009
What is mean by
HURT??
U all know how it feel??
Yes the feeling is veri hurtful.
I'm very VERY VERY VERY VERY hurt today. This is the first time i ever experience it. Although i'm strong in the front, but i am still a human being ya, i still have feelings.
Today i pass my HA exam, at first I'm veri happy. However the happiness only last for a while, i felt very sad and demoralised, my low self esteem start searching for me.
Some people might think tat wah lau she pass. Wah if u heard this will u feel sad and hurt?
I know people see me as a slacker, always nv do HW, never listen to lecture and not even bother to bring my lecture notes.BUT do they know tat i really study very hard for this module. I can swear tat i really study hard for this module coz i told myself tat i can't afford to fail again as i fail my nursing lab skill the other time.
Although i am those last min kind to study compare to those who really study weeks earlier, However i did try to practise after school for the past few days.Even my partner willingly to stay back with me.
Next time, i shall purposely fail my exam, practical exam ESPECIALLY nursing lab and HA in yr 3. then i shall take my sub paper, repeat my module and neglect my studies. This is to make people
HAPPY?
我还是默默的沉受，但是我今天真的无法沉受下去了。我终于崩溃了。
thks to those who really encourage me. But the feeling is still there.
Whenever i feel sad, i will always find her. She was one of my veri good and best friend
Today Jas and I were engaging in our first ever heart-felt talk.
she was telling me how difficult it is to maintain a friendship,
as she had just experienced a change in one of hers apparently.
She started off with, "KELLY, how many best friends you have?"
I thought and search my mind, and said " less than ten"
I posed back the question and her reply was " less than three"
We began to sadden down.
In secondary school i dun haf many good friends. Actually my best friend in sec school is a malay girl who same class with me like 3 years. Imagine I am a chinese and how can ur best friend friend be malay right. However we actually haf alot of crap to talk about.
Well i felt veri veri happy to be with her always. We struggle very hard for A-maths and E-maths. Alot ppl look down on us. When we took back our O-level result, our A-maths teacher reallli happy for us. Y???? because we pass our both maths. Despite our classmates always look down on us because we nv pass our A-maths exam before.But we alreadi prove it to them tat we can passss.
We always meant together in sec school. hahha. That why we always call each other darling , husband or wife. I miss sec school life......
Jas also told me about "proximate" friends, something i've not heard before.
friends who you meet and talk to only during school hours or for school matters,
and i guess am I categorised under this section?
sad isn't it?
I agree with this.
"KELLY, you know, as we age on, growing older and older, the number of friends around us also decreases,
at the end of the day, it would be only your families who are there for you always."
Do u agree with me?????
Well after hearing all this i am fine now....
